A Bad Day at the Office of the Heartache
Today has been one of those days again! I do so well, I write this blog in a positive way to show that there is a way through grief or loss. Yet today my sadness is welling inside, I just want to let it out…yet, I don’t cry…I struggle to let the emotion out. Instead, I go quiet…I look sad, I want to run away from the world. I can feel the pain inside and just want the pain to come out…want it to flow because I know that if I could cry then it would allow some of that pain to be released.
Yet, I can’t….never have been able to and I am so jealous of people who can release their pain through shedding a few tears.
I know I will come through it…I know that tomorrow or the day after, I will find that strength to see the good, to 
see the wonder of life…but for today my body is saying “No, I don’t want to….” Sometimes you just have to listen to your body and give it time to refuel on that inner strength. That doesn’t mean that I am stupid, doesn’t mean that I am not moving forward, to me it just shows that I am human, a human being with emotions.
I share this to show even after time, even for a positive person like me…there will be times when you feel you cannot cope. The emphasis there is on “feel” because I know and you know that I will, and because you know and I know that YOU will cope to…..
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1 opinion for A Bad Day at the Office of the Heartache
Mary
Nov 11, 2007 at 2:22 pm
Dear Anna, oh how I wish I could give you a real hug instead of a virtual one. I had a similar weekend a couple weeks ago. The tears really did help. I’m fortunate that I’m able to cry. Sometimes the tears are overwhelming, though. You give so much of yourself in this blog, and you continue to inspire me. Take care.
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